Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!

Blogging always fascinated me, and have been trying to start one for ages.  Now, I've finally gone and done it.  I look forward to sharing my interests, all things creative and whatever else that crops up, with you!

Some of you are probably wondering why I called my blog Super-Docious.  If not, here it goes anyway :) I've been depressed for as long as I can remember, and when my mother passed away a year ago, it really hit me hard.  I had just started a new job and the stress of keeping it together and trying to do well, I felt I wasn't going to make it.  My work started to deteriorate, I couldn't concentrate or focus on the job at hand.  Worst of all, my mother wasn't there for me to confide in.  I started cutting myself hoping to take some of the pain away.  Unfortunately, that solution was just temporary.

One day, my sister noticed my arm, and of course, I tried to cover that up with a story here and a lie there.  Until, I felt so bad, truly, like a failure, letting everyone down, especially the people I work with, feeling that their patience with me was about to run out.  Would have much rather stayed at home!

I always heard about depression and thought what I was feeling was all in my head, just a part of me.  When my sister started sending me information and contact numbers, did I realise that seeking help was nothing to feel embarassed about or ashamed.

I won't lie and say that being on medication or seeing the therapist has made everything perfect.  I still have my ups and downs, but now tomorrow looks a little brighter than yesterday.

That's where blogging comes in.  I decided to be more positive, express myself more creatively and use the skills I've been given, and share with you all things fantastic.  I thought Super-Docious sounded happy and awesome, and great. So, here's to high spirits, joy, smiley faces and colourful rainbows.

Thanks for listening.  Until tomorrow then....