Blogging always fascinated me, and have been trying to start one for ages. Now, I've finally gone and done it. I look forward to sharing my interests, all things creative and whatever else that crops up, with you!
Some of you are probably wondering why I called my blog Super-Docious. If not, here it goes anyway :) I've been depressed for as long as I can remember, and when my mother passed away a year ago, it really hit me hard. I had just started a new job and the stress of keeping it together and trying to do well, I felt I wasn't going to make it. My work started to deteriorate, I couldn't concentrate or focus on the job at hand. Worst of all, my mother wasn't there for me to confide in. I started cutting myself hoping to take some of the pain away. Unfortunately, that solution was just temporary.
One day, my sister noticed my arm, and of course, I tried to cover that up with a story here and a lie there. Until, I felt so bad, truly, like a failure, letting everyone down, especially the people I work with, feeling that their patience with me was about to run out. Would have much rather stayed at home!
I always heard about depression and thought what I was feeling was all in my head, just a part of me. When my sister started sending me information and contact numbers, did I realise that seeking help was nothing to feel embarassed about or ashamed.
I won't lie and say that being on medication or seeing the therapist has made everything perfect. I still have my ups and downs, but now tomorrow looks a little brighter than yesterday.
That's where blogging comes in. I decided to be more positive, express myself more creatively and use the skills I've been given, and share with you all things fantastic. I thought Super-Docious sounded happy and awesome, and great. So, here's to high spirits, joy, smiley faces and colourful rainbows.
Thanks for listening. Until tomorrow then....
